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I've been having trouble concentrating on some things. While I'm doing fine at work, I am finding it insanely difficult to study for my CompTIA A+ Certifications. I've been reading the same chapter (Computer Sharing Permissions and YOU!) for the past ... two months. One of the reasons I'm not stressing over it, however, is that I don't want to spend the $300 on the testing fees until after I have to go back east for Mom's funeral, whenever that turns out to be. My fractured attention span is much better served by the internet right now, where I can skim over sites and ignore them as necessary.
Luckily, my mood hasn't changed much. I'm not more irritable than usual; I'm not more or less depressed than usual (the depression is pretty much in remission right now. I still take 150 mgs of Wellbutrin a day, but that's more for metabolism control than depression control, although I'm sure it helps.); I'm just going day by day.
It is harder to set aside what is happening with mom right now, as her mental state continues to deteriorate. I still call her every morning, but now I carry the conversation. She can answer simple yes or no questions, but anything more difficult than that comes out confused. Sometimes, she knows the words are coming out right; sometimes, I'm not sure. Three times now she's called me in the afternoon. The first time, I missed the call and called her back, and that's when she wasn't able to tell me why she called. The second time, she didn't leave a message (I was at work). Today, I saw it was her, and difficult as it was, I didn't answer. She didn't leave a message, and I have a feeling either she is missdialing, or just doesn't know for sure what she is doing.
She did manage to tell me that she is very pleased with how her book came back from the printers. Dad has already taken orders for 40 more, and ordered an additional 40 to keep on hand to sell (Like I said, local history, limited interest, not going to be a best seller but never intended to be.) When I told her that Friday morning, she tried to tell me that it was great, or fantastic, or some such, but all that would come out was, "That's Josephine." She repeated it a few times before I told her I understood.
She sleeps most of the day now. Heart wrenching as it is, I'm hoping she sleeps more and more so she has to deal with her confusion less and less. I do know that she realizes I call every day, because she tells my dad. Whenever I end the call, I don't say goodbye; I say I'll call her tomorrow. I hope it gives her just a little something to hang on to. Goodbye just sounds too final to use.
My good friend Doug sends me monthly boxes full of stripped comics from the store he works at. Doug is one of the most awesome people in the world, and I'm truly thankful he's in my life. He's been sending me monthly boxes for the past three or four years. I send him boxes too, but not nearly as often. I try to make up for that by sending him super awesome boxes. Right now, I'm working on the latest season of Doctor Who to send him. As well as a copy of The Human Centipede. In one of his boxes, he sent me a release comic for Bernie Wrightson's Ghoul, as well as a book called FVZA. Bernie Wrightson is a fantastic artist, one of my favorites. Somewhere back east I have a signed limited edition print he did of Captain Sternn (I paid $40 for it in 1992; looks like now it sells for $180!) FVZA is a story of zombies and vampires, and the federal agency taskforce that deals with them. I liked both of the first issues, and decided I wanted to get more or subscribe. For the most part, my comic book collecting days are behind me, but every so often, a choice title comes along. In this case, however, I found TPB for both series, so I ordered those instead. I'm looking forward to them. I like TPBs; I can read them without obsessing over whether I'll leave finger prints behind and lessen their value.
I also ordered The Story of Martha, by Dan Abnett. The book tells of the adventures of Martha during the year long domination of Earth by The Master. I'm hoping it's an interesting read. I've been reading some of the new series of Doctor Who books; once I've finished them, I'll give a quick review of them here. Bottom line, they're quick, fun reads, but nothing more. They don't have the depth of the Virgin NAs, or even the EDAs (what could?) Looking back, it's easy to see now just how special the NAs and PDAs were.
In August, Andy and I will be going to see the Bacon Brothers in Dubois. It will be the first concert for either of us since we moved to Wyoming. I know nothing about their music, but hey- it's Kevin Bacon, and it's for a good cause. I'm looking forward to the concert, for if nothing else, it means a rare weekend off for me. I made us reservations at a hotel, and then promptly forgot which one. So now, I get to call all the hotels in Dubois and ask them if I have a reservation there. *sigh*
I still have two domain names parked and no idea what to do with them. Well, vague ideas. I want tkepple.com to be about my graphic design, and I want outsdr.com to be all about my alter-ego. I really should get my butt in gear and start collecting together the material I want for them. I want to feature all my old work, and I have ideas for some of the comics I used to draw in college; maybe i'll get brave and throw them up there.
My next project after getting my A+ Certifications is to explore alternative photography methods. I really need to create again.
Ike continues to do well; he's pretty stable, although I'm going to have to find somewhere else for him to stay when I go out of town. The farm I usually take him to has too many stairs for him to handle any more; after his last visit, his front legs were skun up from sliding down the stairs. A bad bout of diarrhea earlier this week cleared up, thank fully. What a fun way to be woken up in the middle of the night, not once, but three times!
The cat still likes to bite me. It's a running joke now.
I've been having trouble concentrating on some things. While I'm doing fine at work, I am finding it insanely difficult to study for my CompTIA A+ Certifications. I've been reading the same chapter (Computer Sharing Permissions and YOU!) for the past ... two months. One of the reasons I'm not stressing over it, however, is that I don't want to spend the $300 on the testing fees until after I have to go back east for Mom's funeral, whenever that turns out to be. My fractured attention span is much better served by the internet right now, where I can skim over sites and ignore them as necessary.
Luckily, my mood hasn't changed much. I'm not more irritable than usual; I'm not more or less depressed than usual (the depression is pretty much in remission right now. I still take 150 mgs of Wellbutrin a day, but that's more for metabolism control than depression control, although I'm sure it helps.); I'm just going day by day.
It is harder to set aside what is happening with mom right now, as her mental state continues to deteriorate. I still call her every morning, but now I carry the conversation. She can answer simple yes or no questions, but anything more difficult than that comes out confused. Sometimes, she knows the words are coming out right; sometimes, I'm not sure. Three times now she's called me in the afternoon. The first time, I missed the call and called her back, and that's when she wasn't able to tell me why she called. The second time, she didn't leave a message (I was at work). Today, I saw it was her, and difficult as it was, I didn't answer. She didn't leave a message, and I have a feeling either she is missdialing, or just doesn't know for sure what she is doing.
She did manage to tell me that she is very pleased with how her book came back from the printers. Dad has already taken orders for 40 more, and ordered an additional 40 to keep on hand to sell (Like I said, local history, limited interest, not going to be a best seller but never intended to be.) When I told her that Friday morning, she tried to tell me that it was great, or fantastic, or some such, but all that would come out was, "That's Josephine." She repeated it a few times before I told her I understood.
She sleeps most of the day now. Heart wrenching as it is, I'm hoping she sleeps more and more so she has to deal with her confusion less and less. I do know that she realizes I call every day, because she tells my dad. Whenever I end the call, I don't say goodbye; I say I'll call her tomorrow. I hope it gives her just a little something to hang on to. Goodbye just sounds too final to use.
My good friend Doug sends me monthly boxes full of stripped comics from the store he works at. Doug is one of the most awesome people in the world, and I'm truly thankful he's in my life. He's been sending me monthly boxes for the past three or four years. I send him boxes too, but not nearly as often. I try to make up for that by sending him super awesome boxes. Right now, I'm working on the latest season of Doctor Who to send him. As well as a copy of The Human Centipede. In one of his boxes, he sent me a release comic for Bernie Wrightson's Ghoul, as well as a book called FVZA. Bernie Wrightson is a fantastic artist, one of my favorites. Somewhere back east I have a signed limited edition print he did of Captain Sternn (I paid $40 for it in 1992; looks like now it sells for $180!) FVZA is a story of zombies and vampires, and the federal agency taskforce that deals with them. I liked both of the first issues, and decided I wanted to get more or subscribe. For the most part, my comic book collecting days are behind me, but every so often, a choice title comes along. In this case, however, I found TPB for both series, so I ordered those instead. I'm looking forward to them. I like TPBs; I can read them without obsessing over whether I'll leave finger prints behind and lessen their value.
I also ordered The Story of Martha, by Dan Abnett. The book tells of the adventures of Martha during the year long domination of Earth by The Master. I'm hoping it's an interesting read. I've been reading some of the new series of Doctor Who books; once I've finished them, I'll give a quick review of them here. Bottom line, they're quick, fun reads, but nothing more. They don't have the depth of the Virgin NAs, or even the EDAs (what could?) Looking back, it's easy to see now just how special the NAs and PDAs were.
In August, Andy and I will be going to see the Bacon Brothers in Dubois. It will be the first concert for either of us since we moved to Wyoming. I know nothing about their music, but hey- it's Kevin Bacon, and it's for a good cause. I'm looking forward to the concert, for if nothing else, it means a rare weekend off for me. I made us reservations at a hotel, and then promptly forgot which one. So now, I get to call all the hotels in Dubois and ask them if I have a reservation there. *sigh*
I still have two domain names parked and no idea what to do with them. Well, vague ideas. I want tkepple.com to be about my graphic design, and I want outsdr.com to be all about my alter-ego. I really should get my butt in gear and start collecting together the material I want for them. I want to feature all my old work, and I have ideas for some of the comics I used to draw in college; maybe i'll get brave and throw them up there.
My next project after getting my A+ Certifications is to explore alternative photography methods. I really need to create again.
Ike continues to do well; he's pretty stable, although I'm going to have to find somewhere else for him to stay when I go out of town. The farm I usually take him to has too many stairs for him to handle any more; after his last visit, his front legs were skun up from sliding down the stairs. A bad bout of diarrhea earlier this week cleared up, thank fully. What a fun way to be woken up in the middle of the night, not once, but three times!
The cat still likes to bite me. It's a running joke now.
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