Weekl update
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outsdrI didn't do one last week, because I was having a yard sale. So, let's see if I can briefly (hah!) catch up on two weeks.
The yard sale went okay. I made $155 and got rid of some stuff that was just taking up space. The hardest part was waffling over what to do with what didn't sell when I was cleaning up. Part of me wanted to keep it all, since it was already marked with prices and such. But I finally just got stern with myself and took it all to the thrift store as a donation. Because, if it didn't sell that day, who is to say it would sell another day. And until then, it was taking up space. And honestly, I didn't make enough money to make up for the time and effort I put into having the sale. So, really, I did the best thing. I kept one or two things and the rest got loaded up and donated.
I took this past Thursday off from the paper to work at the hotel and try to get caught up on things there. I ended up not getting nearly as much done as I wanted to ... Sadly, when I'm there, a lot of the other staff see me as the way to handle problems instead of solving them themselves. So I had to pitch in a lot at the front desk. Still, I did manage to take over 200 pounds of electronics to the landfill for recycling. Which was good.
I got an email from Gilmore that he was going to send me everything I need to finish laying out the book by this weekend. Yeah, that didn't happen. I'm so tired of this thing hanging over my head. There are days when I wish I could just tell them that I'm done working on it, cut my losses and go ... but John is my friend, and he did just turn 77. This may be the last nook he ever writes. Who knows? Still, until it's out of the way, it feels like I can't move on to anything else.
When I got home from work Saturday morning, I pretty much went straight to bed at 6:30 a.m. Astonishingly, I slept until 3 p.m., only getting up once to pee. That's pretty rare. Even Jinx pretended to be a normal house cat and slept cuddled up next to my arms the entire time, instead of being his usual Satan's Offspring self, clawing my face or taking up the lower third of the entire bed leaving me afraid to even move my legs in case I touch him and he becomes sharp.
I also didn't bother wearing the CPAP machine. I did feel sluggish for the next few hours, but that's normal anyway. I don't think I'll find any answers on my own with this CPAP machine. One thing I've been wondering ... the mask only goes over my nose. I breathe through my mouth when I sleep. So how is it suppose to help me, anyway? I guess I'm not very clear on the way they work in the first place. I always thought they forces air into a person to keep them breathing when they stopped, or something. I dunno.
The highest setting on the machine is 20. It's at 8 now, and I'm afraid to go any higher. Or lower, because I don't know what it does.
It does have some sort of 20-questions quality feedback survey that is taken right on the machine an saved on the installed smartcard, so I guess I'll do the questions and take the smart card with me to whomever it is that ends up helping me out with this.
I'd just really like to wake up feeling like a human again. It's been so long, however, I'm not sure what that's even like any more.
The yard sale went okay. I made $155 and got rid of some stuff that was just taking up space. The hardest part was waffling over what to do with what didn't sell when I was cleaning up. Part of me wanted to keep it all, since it was already marked with prices and such. But I finally just got stern with myself and took it all to the thrift store as a donation. Because, if it didn't sell that day, who is to say it would sell another day. And until then, it was taking up space. And honestly, I didn't make enough money to make up for the time and effort I put into having the sale. So, really, I did the best thing. I kept one or two things and the rest got loaded up and donated.
I took this past Thursday off from the paper to work at the hotel and try to get caught up on things there. I ended up not getting nearly as much done as I wanted to ... Sadly, when I'm there, a lot of the other staff see me as the way to handle problems instead of solving them themselves. So I had to pitch in a lot at the front desk. Still, I did manage to take over 200 pounds of electronics to the landfill for recycling. Which was good.
I got an email from Gilmore that he was going to send me everything I need to finish laying out the book by this weekend. Yeah, that didn't happen. I'm so tired of this thing hanging over my head. There are days when I wish I could just tell them that I'm done working on it, cut my losses and go ... but John is my friend, and he did just turn 77. This may be the last nook he ever writes. Who knows? Still, until it's out of the way, it feels like I can't move on to anything else.
When I got home from work Saturday morning, I pretty much went straight to bed at 6:30 a.m. Astonishingly, I slept until 3 p.m., only getting up once to pee. That's pretty rare. Even Jinx pretended to be a normal house cat and slept cuddled up next to my arms the entire time, instead of being his usual Satan's Offspring self, clawing my face or taking up the lower third of the entire bed leaving me afraid to even move my legs in case I touch him and he becomes sharp.
I also didn't bother wearing the CPAP machine. I did feel sluggish for the next few hours, but that's normal anyway. I don't think I'll find any answers on my own with this CPAP machine. One thing I've been wondering ... the mask only goes over my nose. I breathe through my mouth when I sleep. So how is it suppose to help me, anyway? I guess I'm not very clear on the way they work in the first place. I always thought they forces air into a person to keep them breathing when they stopped, or something. I dunno.
The highest setting on the machine is 20. It's at 8 now, and I'm afraid to go any higher. Or lower, because I don't know what it does.
It does have some sort of 20-questions quality feedback survey that is taken right on the machine an saved on the installed smartcard, so I guess I'll do the questions and take the smart card with me to whomever it is that ends up helping me out with this.
I'd just really like to wake up feeling like a human again. It's been so long, however, I'm not sure what that's even like any more.
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Date: 2012-07-16 08:21 am (UTC)It sounds like you've been handed this thing with no instructions or info at all, which is nuts. What model machine and mask do you have?
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Date: 2012-07-16 03:52 pm (UTC)With the heated humidifier attachment.
The mask is a ResMed Swift FX Nasal Pillows System. (http://www.resmed.com/us/products/swift_fx/swift-fx.html?nc=patients)
And yeah, I was really left in the dark with it, probably because it's second hand and didn't come directly from a provider.
I'm fairly certain there is no possible way for me to sleep with my mouth shut. I'm beginning to think I'll need to sleep in a diver's helmet.
ETA: And I've started having nosebleeds.
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Date: 2012-07-16 10:41 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-07-17 12:36 am (UTC)http://www.respironics.com/UserGuides/UserGuideMSeriesPlus.pdf
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Date: 2012-07-17 12:32 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2012-07-17 12:40 pm (UTC)no subject
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